The Interviews
My opinion on monstrosity is that it basically means you are seen as less than human or are not perceived well by large groups of people.
I’m a budding witch with Appalachian roots. I’m transfem and just coincidentally finding the courage to face my reality of being bi-gender or gender-fluid. I feel like a newborn foal stumbling onto earth for the first time again. It’s a beautiful and horrifying version of myself to step into because of how much uncertainty I’m facing. What will my bodily expression of this identity be? How will the world respond to me? Will I further be ostracized as a monstrous other by society if I decide that passing as a cis woman no longer works? What does this turn sex and eroticism into and how will my already 5 year hormonal transition change if it ever does? This change came in response to facing the hard to place grief of leaving who I was during my first puberty and life as a boy behind; I couldn’t understand why I felt so comfortable in my body but like a piece of me was missing. I tried for the past 5 years and sculpt myself into what society deems is a woman and socially it’s been very successful but it no longer fits me. I’m looking in the mirror at a version of myself as liminal and multifaced as Hekate and feel myself leaving a singular identity and it feels shocking, terrifying, and euphoric.
I am a Sorcerer and Mystic whose work is centered around an engagement with the Sensual, the Vile, and the Venomous. My practice is a self-surgical one, where I seek to enhance/lean into the qualities that are already deemed Monstrous by the overculture while simultaneously implanting new elements that allow me to exist in a state of Animal Fullness.
The monster as radical otherness, particularly in terms of the erotic. A deviation from the ‘natural’ body or ‘normative’ sexuality. The minotaur in particular as the shadow of the king, suggesting that repressed carnality= repressed divinity. On a personal level: Becoming-minotaur/mermaid, body mod, sexual repression, bridal mysticism, mother of monsters.
